I (C.J.) have struggled as what to write and post, mainly because Dad wasn't fond of social media and such. He was more of a face to face guy and would rather shake a hand than see some sort of emoji. When you lose someone suddenly, it is tough to wrap your head around it. The “what if ” and “should have done” start to play in your head. But the sad reality of it is that it is not in our control. …